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[Apr. 22nd, 2009times new roman12:17 am] |
I will not play at tug o'war.
I'd rather play at hug o'war,
Where everyone hugs
Instead of tugs,
Where everyone giggles
And rolls on the rug,
Where everyone kisses,
And everyone grins,
And everyone cuddles,
And everyone wins.
- Shel Silverstein
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[Feb. 2nd, 2009times new roman11:39 pm] |
I finally broke up with chris.
i've been reading Eat Pray Love. and it was like the whole book was a letter to me saying "please take control of your life." the first couple chapters alone are about a divorce this lady goes through. and in the end she comes out ok, and i was like i have to believe everything will be ok for me. she opens the book with "Tell the truth, Tell the truth, Tell the truth" - Sheryl Louise Moller. which aren't exactly profound words but have been ringing in my head for about a week now.
when i was with chris, i actually started to dislike him, and now that we're not together it's better. it's only been 2 days but i know we're going to be friends again. we agreed to be friends and he told me he still wants to come visit berry and will allow me to keep his printer for the remainder of the year, and will help me set up a my new router.
i still feel like a huge jerk because i didn't want to hurt his heart. i don't even want to consider that i broke his heart. :( this is such a bad time for him, because his dad could lose his job, and his mom doesn't make enough money to support his family, his best friend went to basic, his other best friend (is kind of a jerk in my opinion) is too busy to visit or talk to him. He called me tonight and he was almost crying, he told me that he had all these feelings bottled up and he didn't have anyone to talk to anymore. He keeps apologizing for making me sad. i keep telling him that he didn't make me sad. i just tried to tell him that i didn't connect with him anymore and that i didn't want to lie to him about that.
which brings me to the subject of my sadness. i think i might be depressed i'm going to take myself to the school psychologist/counselor to talk to them. i feel like i'm having a hard time adjusting to school. i'm not a freshman anymore but in some ways it's like i'm starting over so it's really hard sometimes.
i feel like a jerk if i monopolize every conversation by complaining about my personal problems too. |
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[Jan. 25th, 2009times new roman05:36 pm] |
last night i had about 2 beers to drink before krissy decided that she didn't want to be DD. so i "volunteered" because i have a cold and being drunk doesn't really help colds. so at the time i wasn't really in driving condition, but i drank approximately 40 glasses of water before we left for the second destination. so i was ok but my reaction time was a little slow in the icy parking lot. lol
anyhow we get off the highway and we're driving down market and we were dancing and sing Le Disko, and i'm drinking gallons of coffee. This cop pulls up behind us and turns on all of his lights (not the siren lights) and i'm like oh shit and i turned down the radio. then they turned off and i'm like what are they doing. krissy is like they probably are running the plates and i'm like omg what am i going to do! i can't pass a breathalizer test right now (because even if you're not drunk, you can't have any alcohol before you're 21 if you didn't know). The cop puts on this red and blue lights and i about peed myself and then he turned them off again, and so i'm like what are they doing. and krissy starts laughing and is like they're hitting on us. they were yelling at us through the speaker and dancing in their car too.
so it was kind of funny, even if they were being unprofessional. and i'm glad i didn't get a DUI or something of equivalence for underage peoples. |
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[Jan. 23rd, 2009times new roman05:32 am] |
I'm so beyond sick and tired of people acting like Obama is so great and is going to solve all the countries problems.
One person basically told me that of course he's going to make things better, because they can't get worse. Really? Is that logic?
GRRRR!!
Obama has no experience as a large scale executive leader (no school board doesn't count - that's like saying cheryl hascheck would be qualified to run as a president), and hardly any experience in legislation either.
I can't stress this enough: I will believe it when i see it. Why do i feel like I'm all alone in this skepticism? Does someone else know Obama to be a financial expert who took Chicago out of debt? Why do people think that this man has all the answers??
*sigh* This was really bothering me more during the campaign, but I'm reminded of it again now that everyone is so excited about the inauguration. |
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[Jan. 12th, 2009times new roman10:48 pm] |
ok.
so today we went to super walmart. and there was this lady buying so much stuff her cart was full to the top literally. and it was all packaged food (mostly high in fat). she was talking to this girl like "is there low fat ice cream? i'm trying to lower my cholesterol... ooo is that hashbrowns!?"
also since tomorrow i don't have anything to do i'm going to try a water fast it starts tonight and ends wednesday morning. i have been reading a lot about it and it sounds AWESOME. your whole body begins to heal itself and your feel really good, physically mentally and emotionally. 48 hours isn't enough to cleanse my whole body but i hope i feel better. I'd like to extend it but it's better to do when you don't have a lot of physical or mental stimuli. |
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[Jan. 6th, 2009times new roman11:00 am] |
* Is the whole lost cast unstuck in time this season?
* Is it just me or do these people sound like they have no idea what they're talking about? did they make it all up?
* Please start using Google Reader. You can put all your blogs in it. You can even add your friends journals. It's so convenient!!! I LOVE IT!!!
* Here is a January calender of television this month. It's not all inclusive instead they list their favorite shows, but it is still useful.
* Finally I stumbled upon this recently. I'm not sure if anyone will have a use for it, but it's still pretty cool. |
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[Dec. 17th, 2008times new roman05:58 pm] |
Berry he's still really great. he learned how to hump now, so i'm training him not to do that. it's interesting because humping apparently causes deafness when you're in the act. he doesn't hear me say NO NO NO NO NO every time he does it. he also decided a green fluffy pillow i have is his, it's approximately 8 times bigger than him, he carries it everywhere. we went to the vet yesterday and he's gained about a pound in a month. but the good news is that i looked online at a chihuahua growth chart. Based only on his weight now at 26 weeks, he'll be about 4-5 pounds full grown. he's 3.9 lbs now. oh and we went to get my oil changed after the vet and everyone at the car dealer was really excited to see him, and one lady carried him around and showed him off. lol it was awkward.... berry really needs a new (blue) harness for christmas, he outgrew his ;)
Being Responsible for my Car I took car to the dealers yesterday, he/she got an oil change and a tire rotation. and yay it was complimentary! plus they vaccuum and wash it for me. and car needed a bath really bad so that's great.
this picture
these two go hand in hand
Muxtape now that it's gone i have a great mix to make. boo!
CD Burner another one of those cases where you don't know what you got till its gone... heart breaking actually. do you know how hard it is for me to get into my car knowing that i won't be able to listen to "single ladies" 80 times in a row?? or "build me up buttercup", or "just dance".... i told chris that a working cd drive is what i want for christmas *crosses fingers*
please trust that i will attempt to make my own octopus costume for halloween next year. |
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